I had an absolute awful sleep last night due to you, Forrest constantly kicking, sitting up and then flailing yourself and rolling on top of me so I actually went and slept on the sofa. But it did make me realise that I am not letting you sleep on your own in your loft bed until we build a higher rail for you because I do not want you to fall off!

You came downstairs and snuggled me around 7:30 and I was not ready to wake up but I did because you wanted to play Star Wars. I made my coffee woke up a little bit and then saw that someone had posted a hand written letter through the door saying they used to live here and that they placed an order online and that they were having it delivered on monday. But we know for a fact that noone by that name lived here before us. It felt super dodgy to me. Me and daddy talked about it and decided that I should call the police just to get it logged as it made my inner warning signals go off like crazy. I'm glad I did as I feel a lot more relaxed now and they were very nice and helpful and also thought it was a bit strange. So it definitely felt like I did the right thing. It's strange how having kids has made me super vigilant and unable to take any risks!

I woke up daddy and then he came down and played a Starwars mission with you before getting started on the chores he didn’t finish yesterday which was putting together some kallax for your room and some other bits. I took the opportunity to vacuum and then get some editing work done as I can’t finish organising things until daddy is finished with his job.

Nixie, you didnt wake up until close to 10 and made your way downstairs to play starwars with forrest. I made our morning smoothie of banana, pineapple and mango and you barely looked away from the game while grabbing it and having a sip. Daddy struggled majorly with getting the kallax attach to the walls as he was basically trying to get it into the chimney breast. But did manage in the end!! 

We made it into the car around 13:00 for our second attempt to dancing ledge, the three of us went a few days ago but right at the end when we were so close to the pool we had to turn back because i realised it was a two parent job and just didn’t feel i could get the two of you down safely. The tears that ensued were intense and i felt so bad that i had created such intense disappointment so today I really wanted to make it up. You have been super excited all morning about coming back with daddy. 

You brought up the cows at forest school and somehow we got into a discussion about them how they are hard to keep and I said that I'm conflicted and feel bad for them. You said they love the cows and I had to tell you the hard truth that it's not a sanctuary but a working farm. I've always felt it's important to be honest and to tell you the truth even if it's painful but I'm not sure I made the right decision here because you became so upset and had a secret cry with your head turned away. My heart broke for you. You didn't know the truth about farmers and hadn’t realised that the cows are taken away from their mothers and used for meat or milk. I could feel tension in the air from daddy and I feel he thought I shouldn't have gone where I did. But in the moment it felt right.The heaviness of that moment didn’t last too long though, thankfully and you were back to chatting away about the tooth fairy and how amazing it is that she finds all those teeth for you. It is also the time of year when you are constantly shouting out “elder!” whenever you see an elderflower bush and they are everywhere at the moment and we need to make some time this week to forage some and make some cordial.  Oh and another thing i just need to mention that happens pretty much all of the time during car rudes is that a song will come on that you, Nixie really don’t like and then you, Forrest will always say you love it and ask for it to be turned up. And we have this rule that if someone likes a song we will turn it up even if others dont and it’s really a funny thing to me that you do and you do it to me too because i’m not entirely convinced that you actually love the songs but more want to just be the opposite.

 I was worried that when we’d arrive at the car park that it would be full but luckily it wasn’t and we found a place to park. After paying we began the walk the three of us just did a few days ago but this time with daddy. It felt really special taking daddy on this adventure for some reason, he seems to miss out on a lot of our adventures because he’s working and our weekends since we’ve moved have been taken up with house stuff so it felt extra nice to be out exploring together again. Forrest, all you wanted was something to eat but I didn’t do a very good job with snacks today so we really had to ration what we had so I told you taht when we arrived at the cows head statue that we could have a snack on one of the rocks on the other side of the fence. You couldn’t get to the cow’s head fast enough and you really really love this statue and can never stop giving it snuggles. After a little while we continued on our way and made our way down the rocky steps until we reached the cliffs and made our way down yet another set of steps and then climbed down some more cliffs until we reached the place where we got stuck last time. But this time we actually made it dow and I couldn’t have been happier!

This is now one of my new favourite places. The pool is just magical. We had the best afternoon swimming in the sea which felt so incredibly refreshing. Nixie, you did amazing with your swimming and it looks like it’s really starting to click for you, you looked so so happy and were in your element. Forrest, you wanted to go in so bad but you didn’t want to get all the way in and just wanted me to hold you so that you didn’t get more of your lower back wet bit before wanting to get back out again with me and sit on the towel and eat snacks. I loved watching you, Nixie and daddy having a swim, the two of you looked so amazing in that pool surrounded by such a gorgeous coastline. I love rugged places like this. Even though it’s not a natural place and is man made as it used to be a quarry it still somehow manages to check off my wild places checklist. We were in and out a couple of times and also walked around the ledge watching all the rock climbers and adventuring people. How lucky are we to have all these incredible places so close to us. Eventually it was time to head back and Nixie, you surprised us all with how effortlessly you climbed up then I climbed up and daddy lifted you, Forrest up so that I could grab you and then we climbed up the rest of the way with one other place where we lifted you up. It definitely made a difference having two parents and also wearing proper hiking shoes and not my birkenstocks. Before heading up the last bit of stairs that leads to the top of the cliff we wanted to explore the middle ledge and from there you, Nixie and daddy climbed up a different path while me and Forrest went a different easier way up. 

On our way up the steep hill, You, Nixie found some thistle seed pods which you were so excited about because you wanted to make a family of hedgehogs and you told me how much you love crafting and how this time instead of using normal clay you want to use polymer clay. Forrest, you kept saying you didn’t feel good and that you wanted to be carried and just stopped walking but it turned out you needed an emergency poo. So daddy had to help you with that and go find somewhere completely hidden away. Who knew Ikea receipts could also work as toilet paper! After this little incident you were back to your happy self and happily walked the rest of the way up untilw e reached the rock and had a little break. Here you found a 5 pence coin which you were so excited about and told me how when we get home you’re going to put it into your room and i said how we need to get you your own money jar and then you said you wanted to have your own wallet. Once we reached the cows head again we had a really hard time getting you to leave it as like i mentioned earlier you just love it so much. Eventually we started walking ahead sure that you would follow us because otherwise we would have stayed there until it got dak but thenw e heard a big cry and it came from you because you had lost your 5 p coin so then we all spent ages trying to find it amongst the dirt and grass and luckily eventually daddy found it and we could continue our way back to the car but before reaching the car park we stopped in a little information hut and learned a bit more about the area. 

It was already close to 18:00 by the time we reached our car so we decided to drive into Swanage or some fish and chips and then some ice cream for dessert. Forrest, you are such a funny one and have such a great strategy when it comes to eating ice cream, you ask everyone to share with you lots and lots so that by the time everyone else is finished with their ice cream you basically have your own whole one left! You are a very clever little one. We decided to take the chain ferry route home which you both thought was exciting. 

When we got home the two of you begged to play a little starwars before bed so we said you could for 10 minutes which you did and then without any upsets you both went upstairs and got ready for bed. Tonight I read to Forrest in the family bed and daddy read to you, Nixie in your room. Forrest you really wanted us to sleep in your room but until we’ve put on another safety rail I don’t feel its safe for you to sleep there. You were sound asleep once I reached the middle of a third Mr.Men book.